Image “gossiping” by areejarba
I’ve been reading about integrity, and what does it mean to be a person with integrity. I couldn’t help it but remembering something I did long time ago, something cost me a lot, my integrity. Many people think of integrity as a virgin, it takes one slip to go to the other side, but that’s not how I define my integrity for the seek of myself and my friends.
With girls, in order to have an honest, pure and free-jealousy friendship is a very hard to accomplish, thou we girls bond so easily this bonding going into the depth of oneself come with a price of being exposed.
So let me tell you about my “something”, when I first entered college, it was my first interaction with the world away from family, I was naive, spontaneous and I wanted to be liked desperately, because of that and without knowing I put myself in the worst place a girl could ever be, between two groups of girls who hated each other, but both liked me I was happy about it I thought to myself I am playing it cool, little did I know that I was a naive girl surrounded by advanced players.
Not only did I place myself in the middle but I fall into the temptation of gossiping!! Believe or not before I didn’t really know or value gossiping I always speak honestly to those I didn’t like making them know where they stand with me. Such virtue in the nest of gossiping girls is deadly.
Gossiping to girls wasn’t “Oh what a horrible dress she is wearing” but rather was like the quote stated “Information is a power” the more you know and the much more you can tie things together was a way to knock down your competitors. It seems silly then and still is, the only difference is now I know.
You see group A were the poplar girls, the social butterflies everybody liked and despised, Group B were the wanna be poplar girls everybody thought are they really?! I didn’t care much for this I liked them.
I slipped and told someone in group A about B and she use it against her, but actually the girl in group A hasn’t reveled my name so doubts weren’t exactly surrounding me but I couldn’t held it inside me.
So I went to girl in group B and told her that it was me who told girl A and I have no excuse and I ask for forgiveness some of my friends call it most stupid thing I ever did.
She forgive me and yes just like you readers I thought to myself she was an angle and a friend to keep forever. she forgive me my mistake which girls usually don’t but I was such short-sighted. She forgive me and invited me to her group but it wasn’t out of her kind heart she did it so I can be close enough with no protection so I can punished the way she thought I deserve it.
She tricked me, used my good nature against me and naturally I fall into it for a 2 years I lived in College the worst time of my life. Gossip and whispers about me. Moreover, staining my name. You can’t believe how a college filled with students could be so small when you are the daily news.
Today after 4 years, I tell you I didn’t regret telling her the truth at all because I learned so much. I learned not to given into temptation, to honor those who give me their confidence, not to believe quickly, to know human are not what they say or even do but rather human are what they aim.
Because thou I told her secret I never aimed her but well on the contrary, she forgive me but she never aimed me well, I also learned to be liked means nothing, absolutely nothing, to be trusted is greater compliment than to be liked. I learned to stay original and authentic is the greatest gift of all.
Today I am one of the best students of my class; many people love me more importantly they respect me. I grown into may I say a woman with integrity not a girl seeks approval.
To Girl A, I thank you for what you did.
To Girl B, I am forever grateful for what you did, because I was before in your debt now you are in mine.
Therefore, integrity is no virgin. We all at many points of our lives fall, sin, and do wrong but it is how we raise, fix, and pay the debts, which make us own integrity.